i once had a dream

my friend once told me
in a dream
that we are no longer children

is it all over, then?
i don't want to go forward
i cannot go back

let the uneasy feeling
run down my throat
keep it from bursting from my mouth

it's over, all of it
the rainbow is ending
my world is crashing around me

they will all go forward
i see it in my mind
but i cannot follow

i fear that i can only stand
and stare into the future
with tears streaming from my eyes

my cross

though a burden on my back
yet i am walking on
against the crowd
no face looks with kindness to me
i am shunned though my cross hinders
i am scorned and spat upon
yet still i trudge against the crowd

i long to put the cross away
and stand still, at the least
to let go and fly away from hope
with crowds and words which sound to tired ears as good

yet on i trudge, my face against the crowd
cross on my back, a burden, a sign to the world

time to fear

shadows craw
across the ground
in swirling fury

fear now,
children of the fields

the dragon is coming

i am

i am the picture of innocence
i am a lie

i am truth torn to shreds
beaten
broken
bleeding
then poorly mended again
a truth less than what it was

i am the beast with no words to speak
and no home to speak them to

i am the paradox of light and shadow
friend and foe