crash

i don't know what to say

my mouth is frozen shut

my voice is stuck

i crashed into the wall

and now my heart is broke

my eyes, they won't stop

this never ending fount of sorrow

the doctor tells me

now my smile is fractured

and suddenly i think the rest is broken too

i lost my heart

this game is not fun anymore

i looked into the future

i didn't like what i saw

everything was unclear

i was afraid

terrified of the tears

the ones to fall from now til then

it feels like forever

but how long will it last?

sooner or later it will all fall apart

the world will crumble down

crash around our feet

heartbeat

once upon a time there was a heartbeat

i knew it like my own

it went beat, beat, beat

like a softly ticking metronome

and it rocked me to sleep

but then i grew up

and i lost the sound

the softly ticking time

it left my head

it filled instead

with words and sound

and music and noise 

and chaos and stuff

and stuff

i missed that heartbeat

until i found another

another beat beat beat

that puts me at ease 

yet again, like long ago

i don't know it as well

but i like the sound

different, but the same

like a softly ticking metronome

and someday i hope

i hope i can give to

another tiny person

the gift of my heartbeat

the beat beat metronome

a softly ticking lullaby

to sing them to sleep

until they grow up

and find a new heartbeat

and so it goes