the day i yelled at you
how could i know that when the door shut
you cried yourself sick
a whole box of tissues
used and crumpled all over the bed?
the day you yelled at me
how could i know that when i slammed the door
you stumbled blindly
sat and stared at a blank wall for a week
couldn't speak a cohesive sentence?
the day we broke up
how could i know that when i turned my back
you sat on a bench
in the snow
and didn't move
until someone came to lead you to your apartment
and you were in the hospital for three days
with pneumonia?
the day we broke up
how could i know that when i watched you go
you ran and ran and ran
then stood on the bridge
contemplating the water
and you would have jumped into the icy depths
if someone hadn't come to stop you
and you didn't leave your house
or move at all
for three weeks?
the day i moved
how could i know that when the plane took off
you were watching the sky
and thinking of me
surrounded by friends
and feeling more lonely
than you had ever felt before?
the day you moved
how could i know that when the plane took off
you took out that photo we took
so long ago
and stared at it
and dialed my phone number so many times
always pushing the clear button?
the day when it hurt most
how could i know that
you were contemplating
a bottle of pills?
the day when it hurt most
how could i know that
you bought a pistol
and a box of bullets?
the day the phone rang
how could i know that you hadn't moved
or eaten
or drank
or slept soundly
for three days
and all your friends were concerned
and tried to talk to you
and brought you the ringing phone?
the day the phone rang
how could i know that you were in a rage
because your friends confiscated
the pills
the razors
the gun
the chemicals
the alcohol
and they dialed my number
and forced you to talk?
the day the phone rang
you cried
the day the phone rang
you threw the phone across the room
the day the phone rang
something broke
the day after the phone rang
it rang again